My Mormon Musings | Scripture, LDS History, and Theology

Welcome to My Mormon Musings, a personal hub for me to explore ideas at the crossroads of faith, history, and philosophy. Several years ago I began going through a faith crisis myself. I am currently wading through the waters of post Mormonism and trying to decide where to take my life from here. I was born and raised in the church, and now I find myself 40 years old, married with kids in a dominate Mormon community. I am still attending church with my family. I want a place I can tell my story. Since deconstruction I don’t feel there is a single place I can fully belong.

One of the last things I read in hopes of salvaging my testimony was the light and truth letter, and Jonah Barnes’s The Key to the Keystone. Unfortunately they pushed me away farther from the church. I found both to be condescending and lacking any useful information.

Here you’ll find:

My Reflections on the LDS Church — thoughtful, candid explorations of doctrine, practice, and history.

Comparative Perspectives — examinations of other religious traditions and philosophical systems.

Resource Library — links, articles, and primary-source documents that inform each post.

I am currently unsure how long I may leave this site up. I would like this to be a growing collection of information. I want this to be my thoughts and ideas on things. You may notice pages being reorganized, new categories appearing, and older posts refreshed. I am really just interested in putting my thoughts in one place. Potentially writing more and putting things into a more coherent structure at some point.

Over the last several years I have collected a lot of random topics and studied different topics. I don’t want to put out everything I have as a lot of it is just copied from other places. I want to put things out that at least contain some of my thoughts.

Feel free to browse by topic. Use the search tool to find any topic or keyword in a post. If you have any questions or comments on anything you can email me at [email protected].

For now I have 3 main sections that I would recommend first. View all posts will take you to a page to search for my existing random posts. History will be a section that I want to flush out more as time goes on. It will show the early Joseph Smith History with the church and include multiple links to sources for the events both supporting the events and ones that may conflict. Last is an about me page that shares my personal story.